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There are so many thoughts that run thru my head at any given point in the day.  Mostly about what things I am missing the most and I truly miss just tooling around on the computer.  I was not very computer savvy while I was out there.   My pet, pug, was very proficient with them and was in the process of helping me learn about them but he was also teaching me the ways into the Master/slave world of S&M.  It was something that we explored in great depth while incarcerated together.

My pug has opened my eyes to a beautiful new world.

It’s very had to have this type of relationship while in this place.  But we were fortunate that my pug was in with the right C. O. s (correction officers) that we could and did further my education.  I’m not saying that I am perfect and that there aren’t a lot of things that I still need to learn but I believe that the things that My pug and I accomplished together gave me a more than fair advantage over another Master/slave relationship.

Now, I’m not saying that this is the only type of relationship or experience that I want to explore for I am open to just about anything that intrigues or gets my cock hard.

I believe that being a gay man while incarcerated is a very hard thing to be.  You might think that with all the men around that it would be a gay man’s dream; but let me tell you, it’s just the opposite.

It’s hard because the other inmates believe that if you are gay, you are a child molester.  This is a known fact.  In here, being gay is like having a target painted on your back for ridicule and harassment.

I am thankful that there are a select few that know and keep my “secret”.  I believe that there are too many people look down on gay men.

I am not new to being in prison; but I have a lot to learn.

I am serving a 2^nd degree sentence for killing someone.

I will be eligible for release on 06-06-2020.  There is no guarantee that I will get out.  I am ok with being here.

I am probably the only one out of the 1,200 men in this particular prison that believes that I belong here.  I took a life so I should—and am willing—to give my freedom and my life for what I have done.

I will not get into the details of my situation in this post but it there are questions, I will answer them with honesty and sincerity.

I am not the smartest person in the world but I believe that I do have some knowledge on a different number of subjects.

It is my hope that I can find someone willing to write me, get to know me and judge me for who I am—not because I am locked up.

I am sitting in m cell with my television off and my cellmate sleeping above me.

I have just come from my institutional job in the library.  I spend most of my day making photocopies and just cataloging books.

I have recently asked to be put on the list to enroll in the new computer course that they offer.  I’ve already taken one course and passed but its curriculum has changed so I thought I would try and go back and get the two certificates I didn’t yet.

It’s just one thing that I am doing to try to better myself while in here.

I have also finished taking a law clerk training course.  I am now able to assist other inmates with their legal research.

We use a program/service called Lexis/Nexis.

It’s not that hard to use bu there are men in here that are completely computer stupid.  It’s like trying to teach a six-month-old to walk.

They have just recently put a computer in every unit.  There are sixteen units in this prison and each unit can hold up to 94 inmates.  It’s pretty crowded at times.

I think that this place is not that bad considering the element of people here.  It could be worse.

So, until my next posting, please feel to write and say hi.  Let me know that you are out there!

Carl

Well my day begins at 6:30 AM. I am up and about. I have to use a stinger to heat up water to make coffee. It’s something I made because we are not allowed to have anything that can boil water. I made this stinger out of 2 batteries’ wire and a razor insert.

Then comes count. It’s supposed to be a standing count. Everyone in the prison has to stand at the same time every day. FOUR times a day: 7:30 AM; 11:00 AM; 4:00 PM; 9:45 PM. This is because years ago, someone killed another inmate and no one knew until his body started to smell. So now everyone stands.

After count has cleared, they start calling the four units for breakfast. I will eventually get a copy of the menu here so you can see the types of food e have to eat. I will also send along a commissary list of all the things we can order through the store here. This is done once a week.

I wait until they call movement for the south side and then I go to work in the library. I am a law clerk in the library. This means I am proficient in the use of the law computers that they have here at SBCC. I also do a lot of other things.

I do a lot of cataloging of books. I take all the books and upload all the information about them into a separate computer. I put together legal supplies for all that need them. It’s not a bad job. I get ten dollars a week and if I could earn time off my sentence, I would get 2.5 days good time a month. I work every week day morning from nine to eleven and every afternoon from one to three-forty-five. Also, I work one night a week: Tuesday, from six-thirty to nine-forty-five.

Being a worker, I usually get some extra privileges. I get to have more time out of my cell.

We are allowed what is called "tier time". There are 64 cells to a unit; 32 to a floor. All the cells but two on the first floor are double-bunked—that is two men to a cell. We are allowed into the area they call "rec-room". It’s just eleven tables (seating four to a table) and twelve phones. We get one hour in the morning, one and a half hours in the afternoon and one and a half hours at night. Every other day it rotates. They let out 32 cells at a time: 16 on the bottom (1 – 16) and 16 on the top (33 – 48). Every other day, it switches High Side (17 – 32, 49 – 64) and then Low Side (1 – 16, 33 – 49).

We also have what they call a "rec-deck". It’s a fenced in recreation area we can go to get outside. When the weather is bad, they close the yard so this is what we do to get fresh air.

Lockdown in Shirley

Source: Gun tossed to con

By Jessica Fargen, Boston Herald
Saturday, February 13, 2010

A Bay State maximum-security penitentiary has been in lockdown for three days while authorities frantically search for a firearm that may have been hurled into the prison yard, recovered by a con and stashed away, the Herald has learned.

State prison honchos received intelligence Wednesday that a firearm had been thrown over a wall at Souza-Baranowski Correctional Center in Shirley, according to a source briefed by Department of Correction officials.

No weapon has been found.

Steve Kenneway, president of the Massachusetts Correction Officers Federated Union, said DOC officials told him a dangerous weapon intended for a specific inmate was heaved over the wall.

“They have information that an inmate had received it and taken it into the facility and hid it somewhere,” he said. “There is a very, very serious, extensive search going on.”

The prison has been in lockdown since Wednesday morning, when officials launched a “shakedown” - a prison-wide search - said DOC spokeswoman Diane Wiffin. She would not confirm that the lockdown was prompted by a firearm search.

Kenneway, who represents 400 correction officers at the prison, said if the information turns out to be true, the safety risk is high for his members.

“These are the most notorious inmates we have,” he said. “These inmates, many of them, are doing life sentences for horrific crimes. These are the worst of the worst. They are only trying to find ways to get out of prison.”

He applauded prison officials for acting swiftly. “They are taking the information extremely seriously and conducting an extensive search,” he said.

The prison will remain in lockdown until further notice, Wiffin said yesterday afternoon, but she refused to reveal the reason for the shakedown. “We do not discuss internal security,” she said.

Wiffin declined to comment further, issuing this statement: “There was no incident. There was no disturbance. We are doing a shakedown, which we do periodically. It’s not unusual when we do search that we lock institutions down.”

Leslie Walker, director of Massachusetts Correctional Legal Services, did not know why the prison was in lockdown, but added that routine shakedowns are done several times a year and can last for days.